I must now stop, as mother has brought the Vibrater.
APRIL 29TH. All the people in my father's Mill have gone
together and brought me a riding horse. I have just been to the
window of my Chamber to look at it. I have always wanted a
horse, but I cannot see that I deserve this one, having but done
what any member of the G. A. C. should do.
As I now have a horse, perhaps the Corps should become
Cavalry. Memo: Take this up with Jane.
LATER: Carter Brooks has just gone, and I have a terrable
headache owing to weeping, which always makes my head ache.
He has gone to the War.
I cannot write more.
10 P. M. I can now think better, although still weeping at
intervals. I must write down all that has happened, as I do not
feel like telling Jane, or indeed anybody.
Always before I have had no Secrets from Jane, even in
matters of the Other Sex. But I feel very strange about this and
like thinking about it rather than putting it into speach.
Also I feel very kind toward everybody, and wish that I had
been a better girl in many ways. I have tried to be good, and
have never smoked cigarettes or been decietful except when
forced to be by the Familey not understanding.
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