During that evening I reflected about marrying Leila off,
as the Familey was having a dinner and I was sent a tray to my
Chamber, consisting of scrambeled eggs, baked potatos and
junket, which considering that I was engaged and even then
colecting my _Trouseau_, was to juvenile for words.
I decided this: that Leila was my sister and therfore bound
to me by ties of Blood and Relationship. She must not be married
to anyone, therfore, whom she did not love or at least respect.
I would not doom her to be unhappy.
Now I have a qualaty which is well known at school, and
frequently used to obtain holadays and so on. It may be
Magnatism, it may be Will. I have a very strong Will, having as
a child had a way of lying on the floor and kicking my feet if
thwarted. In school, by fixing my eyes ridgidly on the teacher,
I have been able to make her do as I wish, such as not calling
on me when unprepared, et cetera.
Full well I know the danger of such a Power, unless used
for good.
I now made up my mind to use this Will, or Magnatism, on
Leila, she being unsuspicious at the time and thinking that the
thought of Marriage was her own, and no one else's.
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