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see him, did he throw himself into my arms, and why did he weep and beat
his head with his hands?"--"Do not seek to know of what you must remain
ignorant."--"Why can I not know these things?"--"Because you are
miserable and weak, and all mystery is of God."--"But why is it that I
suffer? Why is it that my soul recoils in terror?"--"Think of your father
and do good."--"But why am I unable to do as he did? Why does evil
attract me to itself?"--"Get down on your knees and confess; if you
believe in evil it is because your ways have been evil."--"If my ways
were evil, was it my fault? Why did the good betray me?"--"Because you
are in the shadow, would you deny the existence of light? If there are
traitors, why are you one of them?"--"Because I am afraid of becoming the
dupe."--"Why do you spend your nights in watching? Why are you alone
now?"--"Because I think, I doubt and I fear."--"When will you offer your
prayer?"--"When I believe. Why have they lied to me?"--"Why do you lie,
coward! at this very moment? Why not die if you can not suffer?"
Thus, spoke and groaned within me two voices, voices that were defiant
and terrible; and then, a third voice cried out: "Alas! Alas! my
innocence! Alas! Alas! the days that were!"
CHAPTER V
WHAT a powerful lever is the human thought! It is our defense and our
safeguard, the most beautiful present that God has made us.
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